12.07.06
Ambivalence
12/7/06
- Ambivalence -
I feel this relationship getting stronger, but
I am dominated by this relationship.
I enjoy how your pressence is soothing, but
I hate your disrupting pressence.
I wish to voice my feelings for you, but
I need these feelings to go away.
I cannot risk what we have together, but
I know you are worth the risk.
I want to know your secrets, but
I know your secrets scare me.
I like when I dream about you, but
I hate how its only a dream.
I miss you always, but
I hate how I miss you.
I love you so much, but
I cannot love you.
I thought I made up my mind, but
I know I’m ambivalent.